Mood:Confused
Song of Choice: "
" by Ayumi Hamasaki (this is one of my fav videos lol the Church and snow and Ayu)
Topic: BIG CHANCE
HAHAHAHA!!!! This is it ladies and gentleman the time has come!! Kim's big chance to asend the hiearchian high school ladder with Jonnell and Lisette at my side!
As I've said before you are labeled by the way you look sad but true. I kinda just nod and deal with it but you see there's always something I've kinda hated. I've mentioned it before but I kinda jsut deal with it. You see there is this girl her name is Melanie and I don't exactly know how I feel about her. I remember the first time I saw her I got that weird feeling like when I first saw Lum. Lum amazed me on many levels. As did Melanie. Melanie to me is beautiful physically. But mentally I don't know. Lum is smart Lum is amazing in so many ways--Lum is three dimensional. Melanie...isn't.
It's odd like I won't lie I have been jealous of her. Boys always follow her and she's pretty and popular and everything and well somedays I wish I could be that way. Just once you know...I remember I cried about it once because I wanted to know what it was like to be that pretty and liked that much you know? Someone confused me with her twice...I took it as a complement
::sigh:: but moving past fantasy and on to reality. She and her two sisters all very pretty have been dubbed the queens of rock by...lol well basically by all the girls that fall into that label (I fall there I think due to association) Most of the girls hate them...not because they're mean or anything just...well like if I was talking to Josh and they happened to be there on my arrival they would leave without so much as a world like I was the plague.
I had class with Pam one of Melanie's younger sisters and well she..can be okay...kinda. I'm not sure how to put it....she only talked to me when she needed something...but I loved to make her smile so I did it as much as I could. Well anyway I'm confused lol. You see they do the big pants wear all black look you know and as I've said before you don't dress like that without something bothering you lol unless you're fake and I...don't know if they are or not. I mean...they could be...because they are those people that won't wear it unless it came from the Hot Topic so they can't be so bad off...but...they always look sad...all three of them.
Anyway the point! They're moving! The rulers are passing on and have no heir to the thrown! This is our big chance(me Lisette and Jonnell) to I don't know...get noticed I guess. lol man I don't know where this is going...I know I really don't want to rule it all you know I don't really want to be popular and have everyone know me...I'm really private and stuff but...I don't know just...I guess this is not only our big chance but all the girls. Like since the prettiest girls are leaving maybe well any one of us can get noticed...not that I really want to get noticed.
hmm what am i trying to say...maybe Melanie isn't the problem maybe it's just I'm kinda threatened by her physical beauty and now that she's leaving I can be a little more confidant...I'm not sure really I mean she doesn't have anything I want really. So maybe it doesn't matter if she stays or goes...hmm...man let me think here I never really thought about it...I'm not sure...I know I don't want to be popular but maybe just because...it's the last year and because next year I have to start over I want to be spectacualr...I'm not sure.
You know what yes I do. I'm happy with the way I am! Noticed or not, pretty or ugly(but i know I'm pretty because a little birdy told me so), or anything else! I just don't know I guess hmm I don't know what came over me...I think it was because I tried to be nice and talk to them and they kinda lol ignored my exsistance and gave this holier than thou art air that I thought I had to prove something...but I guess I don't. I'm enouth the way I am lol. Man what a weird thought huh? Me being just fine the way I am...wow that's kinda cool...hmm but still lol I think Jonnell, Lisettem and I will stir up some caos just enough to get a buzz around the school lol! I'm on year book so lol it's all gonna be on film!! lol everyone have a good night!
::Kim dances away pretending to be Ayu from and making water lol ::
Kim
Song of Choice: "
" by Ayumi Hamasaki (this is one of my fav videos lol the Church and snow and Ayu)
Topic: BIG CHANCE
HAHAHAHA!!!! This is it ladies and gentleman the time has come!! Kim's big chance to asend the hiearchian high school ladder with Jonnell and Lisette at my side!
As I've said before you are labeled by the way you look sad but true. I kinda just nod and deal with it but you see there's always something I've kinda hated. I've mentioned it before but I kinda jsut deal with it. You see there is this girl her name is Melanie and I don't exactly know how I feel about her. I remember the first time I saw her I got that weird feeling like when I first saw Lum. Lum amazed me on many levels. As did Melanie. Melanie to me is beautiful physically. But mentally I don't know. Lum is smart Lum is amazing in so many ways--Lum is three dimensional. Melanie...isn't.
It's odd like I won't lie I have been jealous of her. Boys always follow her and she's pretty and popular and everything and well somedays I wish I could be that way. Just once you know...I remember I cried about it once because I wanted to know what it was like to be that pretty and liked that much you know? Someone confused me with her twice...I took it as a complement
::sigh:: but moving past fantasy and on to reality. She and her two sisters all very pretty have been dubbed the queens of rock by...lol well basically by all the girls that fall into that label (I fall there I think due to association) Most of the girls hate them...not because they're mean or anything just...well like if I was talking to Josh and they happened to be there on my arrival they would leave without so much as a world like I was the plague.
I had class with Pam one of Melanie's younger sisters and well she..can be okay...kinda. I'm not sure how to put it....she only talked to me when she needed something...but I loved to make her smile so I did it as much as I could. Well anyway I'm confused lol. You see they do the big pants wear all black look you know and as I've said before you don't dress like that without something bothering you lol unless you're fake and I...don't know if they are or not. I mean...they could be...because they are those people that won't wear it unless it came from the Hot Topic so they can't be so bad off...but...they always look sad...all three of them.
Anyway the point! They're moving! The rulers are passing on and have no heir to the thrown! This is our big chance(me Lisette and Jonnell) to I don't know...get noticed I guess. lol man I don't know where this is going...I know I really don't want to rule it all you know I don't really want to be popular and have everyone know me...I'm really private and stuff but...I don't know just...I guess this is not only our big chance but all the girls. Like since the prettiest girls are leaving maybe well any one of us can get noticed...not that I really want to get noticed.
hmm what am i trying to say...maybe Melanie isn't the problem maybe it's just I'm kinda threatened by her physical beauty and now that she's leaving I can be a little more confidant...I'm not sure really I mean she doesn't have anything I want really. So maybe it doesn't matter if she stays or goes...hmm...man let me think here I never really thought about it...I'm not sure...I know I don't want to be popular but maybe just because...it's the last year and because next year I have to start over I want to be spectacualr...I'm not sure.
You know what yes I do. I'm happy with the way I am! Noticed or not, pretty or ugly(but i know I'm pretty because a little birdy told me so), or anything else! I just don't know I guess hmm I don't know what came over me...I think it was because I tried to be nice and talk to them and they kinda lol ignored my exsistance and gave this holier than thou art air that I thought I had to prove something...but I guess I don't. I'm enouth the way I am lol. Man what a weird thought huh? Me being just fine the way I am...wow that's kinda cool...hmm but still lol I think Jonnell, Lisettem and I will stir up some caos just enough to get a buzz around the school lol! I'm on year book so lol it's all gonna be on film!! lol everyone have a good night!
::Kim dances away pretending to be Ayu from
and making water lol ::
Kim
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